U left me stranded w/o any answer..How long do u wana kip me tortured and wondering? How long do u wanna kip tis hanging? I just wan u to think abt it again and again..Ask ur heart cz it has all the answer..Im not gonna declare that its over unless u said it directly to me face to face..Im not gonna let it go unless ive spoken out my part cz it's realy unfair and ridiculous..Letting go and wasting the 1yr full of sweet memories just bcz of this matter is really unfair and unreasonable for me..



I'm so, so, so sorry..I nevermeant to break your heart..

Labels: open up ur heart

Its 2.24am and im still not sleeping..haizz...I cant sleep cz im having a burden of thoughts running in my mind..I did a silly, stupid and foolish mistake..haiz..A mistake that i couldnt be forgiven for..A mistake that i wont forgive myself too..But its just too late right now..I just couldnt change the person's mind or decision now. The person decision was made final..haiz..Keep telling myself that an angry person would tend to say things that they didnt mean it..But wad if its the truth? Im gonna lose that person once and for all due to my stupid mistake..haizz...

I cant forgive myself..How in the world the person would forgive me?!STUPID2 SHIKIN!!! AARGH!!!! Cant bear to lose the person..The person that leads me to the right path, a good daughter, a gd student and a gd employee..Always be the 1 giving advices..haiz..How i wish that i could rewind the time..And wish that all this doesnt happens!..But it soo impossible..I hope that the person could forgive and accept me back..Cz i still remember the person's words " I would never leave u through words especially on the ph"

Just hoping that this nightmare would ends..Just hoping that we would patch things up..Cz im still counting dwm to our special day..haiz..

Labels: pls come back

Im currently obsessed with this song..Just love the way Mariah Carey sings this song..It kips me wondering wad is the real meaning of love..Because for me LOVE is all abt APPRECIATION, SINCERITY, ACCEPTION AND HONESTY..

TO HIM: Baby, i love u soo much.OOPS! Wait a minute do i knw the meaning of love?? hmm..Sorie dear i think u have to show me..

Labels: What is LOVE?

Featuring the guy team


Taufiq and LOla


SYah and Ekin


The gerl's team: ekin and Lola..haha

24.06.2010 the day that i was ask to go bowling with <3's company(colleagues)..I was expect to get ready within 10mins whch is soo impossible, tag along and play bowling(whch had been my long lost hobby)..Met baby's colleagues and LOLA(Taufiq gf)!! I was suppose to tag along to accompany her..haha.. Chatted with her abt OUR new sch..haha.. It was quite long tat we didnt see each other.. I lost touch of how to bowl..haha..The shoe is damn big for me even tho i've changed it to a smaller size..haha..But get used to it eventually.. All of us had fun even tho we weren't sure of how to bowl..haha..Well..We are the "pros" nothing is impossible for us..hahahah...MP(Macam Paham)

Went training today..haha..Lyk finally...Trained by Tracy and Zheng Yang..Played a friendly match partnered with coach..hehe..

Coach told me : "Shikin ure getting chubbier arh..Wad happen?" hahah..

I answered :"Well..Ive been happily fed by my bf..hahah.."

Well, at times i do hate being chubbier but i am happy and grateful..haha..Cz even tho i am getting chubbier i am still exercising and eating regularly..hehe

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Filling up my holidays by werking closing..Had fun doing closing with the closing ppl..haha..Its been soo long i did closing..But unfortunately i was down with sore eyes..I cudnt werk for the past few days..

However, Weekends was fun..Had the reunion on Fri..Haha..It was great..My old frens sae that im getting chubbier(fat)..haha..Im proud to say YES I AM, cz im leading a happy life..hahaha...And they kept on asking me to stop crying..haha..I wasnt crying larr ppl,my eyes are watery cz its sore..We had loads of fun talking abt our past and present..haha..

Sat was family time! Yeah! Had the ceremony(Kenduri arwah) at aunt's plc..Had fun too..haha..A day filled with laughter, jokes and pranks...haha..Saaayang ABAH!

Sun, HAPPY FATHER'S DAY! But my family didnt celebrate..haha..Sorry daddy..Went out with love and his family to Changi..Initial plan was to go there just the 2 of us with his bro and his gf but then we changed it..I dont mind at all..haha..cz the mre the merrier..Learn spanish from Zul..haha..Fun and Interesting..Joke arnd with Sarina and Zul..Went down to TRM for a drink..Met Ikhsan at wrk..Joke arnd with them too..haha..Overall had loads of fun accompanied by love!

Well, weekends over..Werk again..Cant wait to go CCK campus on Thursday..Can go and see2..haha..

TO HIM: Can i walk and spent time with you by the beach one day? Thanks for the idea of bringing me for an ice cream date..thanks..te quiero hasta eternidad

Labels: quiero caminar con usted por la playa

HAPPY 16MONTHSARY TO US!! Hehe..Being with you for the past 16mths had been an enjoyable, fun, sweet, sour(hehe), saltish(hehe)and exciting ride..hehe..We went through all up and downs together w/o leaving each other behind..You taught me to be a better gerl..U've lead me out from all my probs and gave me solutions for all of it..U've been a great listening ear for me..In other words baby, u never leave me in the dark alone..And that is why i began to fall for u again..hehe..Never gonna stop loving you..

Im not sure of how u are feeling towards me through out our 16mths relationship..But the only thing i knw and hope that its true im being loved by u wholeheartedly..

Labels: 16mths happily with u